Today I returned to work after a mini vacation of which I got much accomplished. But the office was not it's usual setting. It was morgue quiet. Everyone was to themselves including me. I was hoping that the office buzz and after effects of the holiday would pull me from my 'blah' mood but no such success. Instead I am left to my thoughts as I sit in my office awaiting...not sure if that is a good thing today.
This morning I wanted to pack a small bag and leave...indefinitely. No destination. Just a plane ticket and adventure. I'm not even sure if I would have told anyone where I was going. The thing is that I have had mornings like his before. I get tired of groundhog day and I just want to GO. I read about people who do it all the time. Why can't I?
I remember when I read Eat, Pray, Love and the feeling that it left me with. I so wanted to shut everything down and travel for a year just to find myself. It's very hard to do soul searching when your life keeps interrupting.
People in other countries believe in enjoying life. They take off 2-3 months a year to travel. The hours that they work allow for long breaks in the middle of the day. They are not defined by how much property they own or if they are rich. They truly believe in QUALITY of life! But in this society, we work unbelievable hours. Our days off are spent trying to catch up on much needed rest. We stress over bills, relationships, family, and jobs...things that are beyond our control. And when we look back, all we see is a blur.
One of the things that irks me the most is how materialistic we have become. People are literally losing their minds because they can't get their children gifts for Christmas. Really? Christmas is not about gifts. It's about Christ. I'm not against giving gifts but we really need to remember the reason for the season. I have a friend whose family tradition is to have her children sing Happy Birthday to Jesus every Christmas. They even buy a cake with candles. Now that is instilling the true meaning of Christmas.
And as we come into another year, we make all these vows that we are going to make even more materialistic changes. Lose weight, get a house, etc. Is anyone making realistic resolutions? How about deciding to spend more time studying God's word? How about burying grudges? Perhaps you need to make amends in your marriage or relationship. Stop lying or deceiving others. Keep the promises that you make. Be a better mother or father. Be a better friend, sister or brother. Be healthy so you can live to tell about it!
Frankly I am beyond sick of making materialistic resolutions. This year I am about a makeover for my soul. No 'tangible' goals! Everything is going to be about having a better spirit and whatever that entails. Because when it is all said and done, what will you remember me by?
Reinventing your body, mind and soul is something we should continually be doing. People do aspire for material things but with that a person also has to do some changing with the mind and soul especially when they are trying to do better
ReplyDeleteI'm with you girl and I do understand. At some point we will have a "I got it" moment.